Dear Future Boyfriend,

I don’t know if I should really need to tell you stuffs running in my head since yesterday. I have been so excited that today is the start of my birth month. Yey! I’m this shallow and childlike. ;) I just realised that I’m not yet ready for you since it’s only been a month since I was with someone. I’m still mourning with the loss and eventually all the memories that I had with that person won’t bother or affect me any more. I want us to find each other when we’re both ready and whole.

Soon you’ll be able to read all these letters. I’ve gone through pain and I’m not saying I won’t be able to feel them with you but I know somehow it will be worth it, more than anything. Right now, allow me to forget him. Stay where you are, be happy. Experience the singlehood, let it surprise you. I’m keeping my fingers crossed and getting my cloudy mind clearer everyday hoping that you might tag along my way.

I’m this positive despite the fact that somehow the guy who dumped me and left me with no choice is still coming back. I know he’s not, it’s just that…my mind is programmed thinking he’ll be away only for a vacation. It sucks big time. But I promise I won’t let this ruin the “future us”. That’s why I’m letting all these stuffs out now, there’s no looking back. Excited to meet you boyfie! :)

 From the bottom muscle located at my left intercostal space midclavicular line,

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